“I crossed into a space where my life was no longer defined by my parents and what they needed from me. And that gave me time and space to begin this journey of figuring out what I needed.”

“I don’t know if I could have written it in a way that wasn’t absurd, because absurdity felt like the most natural and truthful way of being.”

“After I gained citizenship, it was just this constant vibrational confusion that I held within me about, what do I claim as my culture? Who do I claim affinity to? How can I ever reconcile these questions?”

“Your life is not just a series of present tenses ordered as integers in a great scroll. Everything behind you in the scroll is part of your present tense, and you don’t want to forsake it. You want to honor all of it.”

“Most of the things that take me to writing are things I don’t talk about publicly or things I don’t share publicly. I need to keep those as my own, I need to keep those close to me so that I might still feel good about them.”

“When I ended up at the prison because of my novel… You start to ask yourself. Is it worth it? I mean writing. Is it worth it? To be here, in prison, for a year or more?”

“Not only knowing their names but getting them right is a duty toward every living thing on this planet. Have the decency to know what’s around you.”

We flipped the script! Lydia Millet interviews Jordan Kisner about waiting, chameleons, and thresholds to celebrate the paperback release of Thin Places.

“Why am I trying to be a part of a canon that literally does not even understand me?”

“That’s when I realized, “Oh this is the project of the book. I’m remaking my consciousness. This isn’t what I signed up for.” And of course it is— I’m the one holding the clipboard. But this is not what I thought it was going to be.”

“Injury doesn’t always show up the way you think it will. Family doesn’t manifest or show up the way you think it will— in my life, it hasn’t.”

“I think that writers could feel much less lonely in what is already a fairly lonely vocation, if there were more conversations about this.”

“Life is lived on the ground, and mostly it doesn’t make sense, and mostly it’s messy, and mostly it’s mundane. I want to hold something of life inside of the things that I make.”

“I think it has helped to talk about these things. To— to make peace with it. To make amends with it.”

“It’s not that I don’t ever write harshly now, or ever use humor. But I always want first to love something— in the world and in my work. I wish first to love something.”

“I realized, Oh, I would do anything to get out of sadness. Whether it be turning to rage, or turning to paranoia, or anything else. Any kind of distraction.”

“The beginning of my illness felt less like a single moment of bifurcation than a series of small fractures.”

“My first thought was, NO. I thought, I don’t like this idea of “a threshold.” I realized it’s just like because on some level I feel like I’m a very resistant personality.”

“I thought “She’ll be SO ANGRY that she died!” Dare I borrow some of her mannerisms?”

“I don’t think books are stable objects, because I don’t think your brain is a stable object.”